I had a dream last night. I was at my friend's birthday and an unexpected guest who I am moving on to, arrived. Fast forward to that dream, I was our ancestral house and saw these old women about 8 of them sweeping the floor. The other scenes were a little emotional and the entire dream bothered me 'til I woke up.
I was having this weird feeling so I prayed and I asked if this certain dream meant that someone was in trouble or somebody died. I was totally relieved on what my dream meant. I checked for its interpretation:
Cleaning -To dream that you are cleaning, implies that you are removing some negativity in your life and overcoming major obstacles. You are moving ahead toward a new stage in your life.You are seeking self-improvement. Birthday -Denotes acceptance of yourself. You are celebrating who you are and coming to terms with who you are as a person.
I think that this is timely in my mission to keep my contract to myself and continue moving on and being happy. I hold no grudge and I just wish everything well. I'm at peace with myself and I'm doing what I can to further improve who I am. I remember when I told Mom that I just realized how strong I am as a person. She then added that I was not only strong, I'm also too hard headed hahaha! Thanks Mom.
Come clean with all the negativities I felt these past weeks and I'm accepting myself more. have you ever had a dream you feel weird about? Cheers! xoxo
I kissed my emotional pain goodbye, as I signed a contract with my Buddy and Trishe following all that I have written in this powerful paper signed by a powerful pen so that I can move on.
I feel free and happy, and will continue to be happy as I look forward for tomorrow, confident that I will not break the contract. It's time for me once again to be really really happy on my own and say good bye to "you, JuanHari" and the pain. I'm now ok and will continue to be okay as I move forward to my next journey as I close this chapter in my life. If I ever look back to this chapter, I'm pretty sure that I have nothing but ridiculous laughter knowing that I did what I did at 21.
I am moving on and it feels good. Thanks Buddy and Trishe. I will not let myself down. ;-)
As I am signing the contract. Done deal and it feels good.
Here's what my Buds gave me as we were throwing away all the pain and promising to be happy and successful.
A message from the card Buds gave me. Thanks Buds.
My friends and I were wondering where to eat lunch just to pamper ourselves with the grueling work we have for days. And yes, we're craving for some Jap food! We were choosing between Sango and Pepper Lunch and Red Kimono. These restaurants look yummy and we found some great reviews on 'em. Anyways, we opted for Red Kimono because it was within our budget (thrifty people friendly lol) and because they have a branch in SM Megamall which is just walking distance from our office.
We were like bunch of new students when we entered the resto...excited, giggly and anticipating! Of course we already know what to order then because we checked on their website. I love their site because they have a complete list of menu with prices so we were totally armed to order!
Since we have a limited time to eat, we chose their Quick menu and had our side dish. I must say... this was the moment I fell in love with Red Kimono! We ordered Crunchy Tuna Maki for starters and promise... if you like watching Cooking Master Boy anime series or any anime with cooking genre, you must be aware of the character's exaggerated and overwhelming reaction when they take a bite of something really incredible. That's what happened to us! We tried to compose ourselves though (we don't want other customers to freak out lol) we were already praising it and taking pictures and giving too many thumbs up that the waiters were giving us such wonderful smiles on their faces.
We're pleased...very pleased and satisfied and gone to heaven after eating. It's really worth it! I'm excited to bring some of my other friends along, even my mom who's already asking me when I'll bring her here. I guess the downside is that their serving plates/ bowls isn't really that ergonomic because I was having a hard time eating my Gyudon because their bowl was really DEEP (I guess an attempt to really show modernize jap resto here). Yeah the waiters were also not really that attentive because we kept on reminding them about our bill and take out. Doesn't matter though because the food was lovely.
Four stars on this one. They did a great job in giving Pinoys a kick on modern japanese cuisine. Loveet!
I love their napkin and chopsticks. More importantly, I love this crunchy tuna maki! It was bursting with flavors of seaweed, tuna...the best way to explain it... Heavenly!
From L-R: Chicken Katsu Curry (really great tasting and almost homemade feel type of japanese curry), Pork Katsudon and my Gyudon. Their meat is tender and the flavors are balanced. I love their presentation but having trouble with their bowls. They also have big servings and worth the price! We didn't even shed 1K for our meal! Of course I didn't forget the dessert! I love green tea ice cream! It's one of my favorite gelatos and I'm surprised on the light flavor of their version. Compared to italian gelato, their green tea doesn't have a strong flavor to it.
I heard a lot about these two stars from my Mom. I'm pretty sure that if she finds out about their departure she'll be sad as well. I'm not really a fan but I've watched how millions adored them. I've seen how iconic they are and somehow amidst the tabloids running in their lives, they were able to leave something great behind. If it weren't for Farah Fawcett, Charlie's Anglels wouldn't be complete. Michael Jackson on the other hand...well when I was a kid I thought that he was really a white guy, but found out later on that he had plastic surgeries. I watched how millions were screaming out for him and he had me singing along and trying so hard to practice his Moon Walk which up to now I still fail to do so. My favorite would have to be his duet with his sister Janet Jackson (Scream). They will certainly be missed...
I love these actors. They're both eccentric and totally most unique and perfect in the characters they portray. I knew it was a good tandem when I watched them in Sweeney Todd. I'm definitely sure this is another hit with Tim Burton directing Alice in Wonderland. I can't wait for next year to see it!
Ok don't freak out on why my officemate looks like he doesn't want to see me for a week in this chat. I have a sprain on my ankle after hiking a little bit last sunday and while running after my dog in the garden (yah clumsy). I didn't expect my ankle to swell when I woke up so this... I ended up working at home for the day. I was online the whole day so I'm virtually at the office. Our web designer dude would always start asking me questions in english I think whenever he gets bored hahaha. Here's our typical conversation. Hmmm are you worried as a friend or do you really don't want to see me at all pare after bombarding you about my heart problems weeks ago? I know... I'm a bunch of energy. LOL
I don't like Kanye West because I think he's boring and too egoistic. But I so love these sneaks at the Kanye West x Louis Vuitton Sneakers for June 2009. I think this is the best that ever happened to Kanye. I'm dying to have one of these! I wonder if its available in Greenhills lol. These are my dream sneaks and it'll be a miracle if i suddenly own one. Probably by then there's another collection. *sigh* Why does it always have to be too overpriced?! Hay... will these sneaks ever be just a dream for me?
A confession of longing does not indicate a lack of faith. I will say it again. A confession of longing does not indicate a lack of faith. It is simply honesty.
Many of us who are single encounter this accusation in speaking with those who have forgotten their time of trial—if they knew a time of trial. It is as though to suffer in silence is more noble, to live with pretence more spiritual, and to smile through the pain more righteous. I smile through the pain. I give and love and serve—but I am also honest.
We are allowed to confess our pain and our sorrow in the same way that David cried, “How long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me� (Psa. 13:1)? God is not hiding His face. We know this. As His children, as His beloved Church, bought at the price of His Son, we are His treasure. He is ever attentive to our needs and there is an emptiness that is best expressed in honest words to the One who cares.
We are allowed to admit that life has not turned out as we planned. We are allowed to do this because God is not afraid of our honesty and He cares. In fact, it is this very honesty that allows the body of Christ to shed the accusation of hypocrisy. What misery to have neither spouse nor fellowship with believers. What misery to be unable to admit the “blessing of singleness� at times feels more like a curse.
We are not a people free of pain and sorrow, free of longing and desire, and we need not pretend otherwise. To be unable to admit where it hurts is sometimes more troubling than the pain itself. We confess our need, our longing and we end our prayer as David ended his, “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.� (Psa. 13:5-6). He has been very good to me.
A while ago I wrote what I imagined as my conversation with God.
At Last Honesty
God: “What’s the matter? Me: “I’m lonely!�
God: “I know! Don’t you think I know that?� Me: “Yes Lord.�
God: “Then what’s the problem?� Me: “I’m lonely.�
God: “What do you want?� Me: (Repressing the honest answer I speak:) “I want what you want Lord.�
God: “You have it.� Me: (dead silence)
God: “Something is still bothering you. What is it?� Me: “I’m alone.�
God: “Why is that a problem?� Me: “I’m not happy.�
God: “And why not?� Me: “I don’t want to be alone.�
God: “You said you wanted what I wanted.� Me: “Yes Lord.�
God: “You have it.� Me: (silence)
God: “Isn’t that what you wanted?� Me: (at last honesty) “No Lord.�
God: “Then you do not want what I want?� Me: “I do, but I also want to be married. I also want what I want.�
God: “The problem is not your desire to be married. That is a good desire. The problem is that you expect that I should give you what you want when you want and how you want. If a sparrow does not fall without my knowledge... If I dress the lilies in such splendor... If I cloth the grass of the field which so quickly withers... Do you imagine I have forgotten you...my beloved? I have not forgotten you...do not worry.
God: “You are still troubled...why?� Me: “I’m lonely.�
God: (gently) “I know.�
The heart finds comfort in silence. He knows and my confession of longing does not disturb Him. He knows and cares.
A confession of longing does not indicate a lack of faith but it may. Within our longing sin may fester and, like children, we may stomp our feet, clench our fist, and demand what we want NOW! What we really want to know is that we are not alone, not forgotten; that we can trust God to bless us. What we really want to know is that despite the cloud of unknowing that smothers us there is a loving and knowing God who has not forsaken His children. Even more, we want to know that He has not simply blessed our friends and cursed us; that even here and now—He loves us. He loves us!
A confession of longing does not indicate a lack of faith but it may. Growing and maturing mean that we look past the moment, past the now, and consider that reality is neither singular nor local. We are part of a grand scheme. I do not pretend to understand it all or some of it—but I know whom I serve. I know He loves me. I know He is working all things together for the good of THOSE who love Him; ALL those who love Him. I have no clue why my longing is unfulfilled but one thing I d
“Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you (Phil. 3:13-15).�
In our confession of longing we must maintain our faith. Yes, I pursue relationships and act in boldness when I am moved but my working will never make for me a wife. I doubt that while I sleep tonight God will remove a rib and bring me a wife. Rather, I find peace in trusting Him whom is love to love me the way He sees fit and this brings me peace. I strive to be the man HE wants me to be in order to please Him.
I will work diligently to know a woman and to love a wife someday but I cannot manufacture nor speed this process. Believe me, I have tried. That He loves me, that He cares, that He is working on my behalf is my peace. This is my pillow and firm, warm, bed. It is my waking comfort and my daily salve. I am lonely but, “I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.�
I was commenting from blogs....just another day from a commenter like me bwahaha. I stumbled upon this news that's really weird and funny. How stupid can a drunkard man be? Thanks to this racoon, revenge is sweet! I hope there are troops of racoon on the move to bite every penis stupid enough to try getting on a woman's pants or skirt. Go racoons! This news is hilarious!
I am becoming one. Nope I don't hate it because it's really getting bored here in the office and my mind is running elsewhere. I don't really listen to music that much because I'm an internet freak but now I'm enjoying it as well. BTW I heard a new version of Careless Whisper revived by Seether and it's really kinda cool. Not corrupted nor does it sounds like a background in a porn or sex scandal clip. And yeah, I'm going back to my roots again and it feels good because I'm more comfy with it.
I'm not going back to memory lane about what just happened to my heart. I've already accepted that its all over and done with.
Anyways, I guess one of the things I remembered that I learned was that you can relate your feelings and life in a song. So no wonder singers are full of emotions when singing and people listening to songs are affected by the lyrics.
Here's a list of the songs that kept singing on my head that I can relate to before (it's pretty mushy i know - good thing that it's kinda got out of my system already)...
Don't Fall in Love with A Dreamer (Kenny Rogers)
Be My Number Two (MYMP, Christian Bautista, Joe Jackson)
Steep (NIna, Lauren Christy)
The Warrior is a Child (Gary Valenciano)
Okay... I'm not cheesy and right now my head is screaming wth?! and wtf?! I'm not really a sentimental person until I felt this so called "feelings" for a person. But I'm glad that I did because I became appreciative of emotions more than I did before.
Here's what's singing inside my head right now. I'm not a Nick Lachey fan *yuck* but the lyrics got me. Another is Broken Strings by James Morrison so here it is... the songs I can relate to right now.
Patience
Just have a little patience I'm still hurting from a love I lost I'm feeling your frustration Any minute all the pain will stop.
'Cause I Need time My heart is numb, has no feeling So while I'm still healing Just try and have a little patience.
I'll try to be strong Believe me I'm trying to move on It's complicated but understand me.
'Cause the scars run so deep It's been hard but I have to believe Just have a little patience ---
Anyways, I'm ok now and I'm missing my old hair style and almost black nail polish. I think I'll be going back again to my college days look. I'm getting excited once again!
How about you? Do you have any song you can relat to?
When I first heard this show from Ate Tin, I thought : "Geeks top billing a comedy show? I don't think it'll work". But one boring day, I decided to watch it on Youtube and I went gaga over it! To the point of even watching it during work. Hahaha!
This show is simply hilarious and Sheldon, one of the main characters is a genius! He's so effortless and Leonard is just adorable. Penny on the other hand is also funny especially whenever she and Sheldon talks. They're natural at this! I even told my office mates to watch this show. They were totally laughing! I can't wait to download season 1 & 2 or probably buy a dvd. It's not yet shown here in the Phils. though too bad. For now let me leave you with one of my many favorite clips of the show. Enjoy!
Me and my brother and his girlfriend went to the second and most probably the last reunion concert of the legendary icons: The Eraserheads.
I'm posting my pic with the two lovebirds because I want to introduce you to my "kuya" (big brother) who was my influence in music. Yes a common dude with a passion for music and not a celebrity. He made me listen to rock bands and alternative music at the age of 6. So rap (unless it's made by Francis M.), R n' B, sentimental songs aren't really my type. Though I'm starting to appreciate it now whenever I've got the time to listen.
The Final Set: The Eraserheads Reunion Concert was a blast! I love it because there were fireworks display and I'm a sucker when it comes to those. I enjoyed it becuase I've got kuya with me with galpal and sang along with the band. The best part is that I reminisced the times when I was a little girl playing my Barbie or reading Sweet Valley Kids while listening to their music on a cassete player. Pigtails, dress and all girly, I was singing Huling El Bimbo, Pare Ko, With A Smile, Toyang and a lot more.
It's sad that they disbanded and it's also disappointing that they didn't perform ALL of their hits. However, it's good enough and worth the pay that we were able to watch them and sing with them live. Me and kuya were are teary eyed afterwards lol. The musical arrangement was the best I've heard and they've got a really good sessionist! The crown that probably reached more than 100,000 was there for their loyalty and support and their love of the music. Tatak Pinoy!
Ely, Raymond, Buddy and Marcus. There's no Eraserheads without you. Through your music, you showed life as it really is. It captured my heart when I was just a little girl, and it continues to capture the hearts of new generations. "Bogchi Hokbu!"
P.S. Yes I did record most of their songs during the concert but due to bad quality since everyone was singing and shouting I chose not to post it here. I'm pretty sure it's on youtube already.
This day always pisses me off...well it still does actually because of lovers riding the cab to go on a date or motels... it's so unfair that those who don't care about this day have to suffer not being able to get a cab! Aside from this... I feel like throwing up every valentines whenever I see lovers doing a humongous PDA session everywhere (what's this? are they having a raging libido or something? Puhleease! Get a room!)
Now, being happily single, and a busy working girl that I am... I spent my valentines with my friends. It's fun to celebrate this day with a group of friends! Last friday I had an advanced valentines/ single awareness day with some of my friends who happens to be in my working vicinity and we ate lunch! Then I went to grab a bottle of beer and ate dinner with my baby bro cousin and one of my best friends (check our whatev poses hehe). Nothing sweet, well for me their company is nice and enjoyable so I had a blast!
And then last saturday, someone gave me a rose...yep, the one on the picture. It's really nice and there was a teddy bear wrapped around it. Cute! Thank you a bunch! I also treated my mom for lunch since dad's not around so we made it a family date! I love treating my mom to something special!
All in all, compared to my valentines rating for four consecutive years...it was always a DUH?! and WHATEV kind of reaction...now it moved to Valentine's Bleh (meaning its a so so...pleasant but not totally amazing nor extravagant...) Well anyway I'm not really a romantic so my reaction to anything sweet is sometimes twisted or emo-istic.
Having a writer's block can sometimes lead me to finding things I like... This song is one of them. I'm not a fan of Kara DioGuardi of American Idol but heck I didn't know she can sing that well!
Anyways, here's officially my new favorite song "Strangers & Angels" written and sang by her. Listen to the music and appreciate the meaning...I sure did, that's why I love it!
